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One month since I left my homeland: The fear of change


Moving away from home was the first step and it began at the end of February 2018. The fear of the unknown soon appeared. I think of all the memories and things I lived in the space that I called home for so many years and I feel a melancholic.
27 years went by like a slow motion movie, making me reflect on how short existence is and how quickly circumstances and our lives can change by decisions we make, how our fears suddenly appear, making us doubt .
I love adventure, I love and I fear the adrenaline of not knowing what is coming. I gave up an old life: comfortable, simple, quiet because I needed to experience cultural shock, a different life style. I am rediscovering myself in the midst of the chaotic and contradictory circumstances in which I left home.
The beauty of this is that nothing is written and although fear paralyzes, I have the power to choose how I want to face this challenge. I do not know if a year or a couple of months is a little or a long time, and I don’t care: I love the land that saw me born and that gives refuge to my family, friends, special people. I don’t know if I want to count the time I decide to be away because there are no limits other than those in my head.
I thank life that has given me so much, to the beautiful people who have been supporting me with so much love in this madness. My heart accelerates with emotion and panic to pursue a dream that is slowly changing, that reinvents itself and molds the hope of being able to connect and adapt this adventure with the people I don’t want to leave behind because they are part of my present , of a beautiful new future.
I love the mental freedom to believe that I can do things. Travel, see the world, savor cultures and contrasts, feel nature and cities on the skin. Many weeks later, here I am, breathing fresh air and feeling full, free of mental or social ties.
Thanks for the support, this is possible because of the people who believed in me, that have helped me and still are!
Thank you, thank you, all I can say is: BELIEVE YOU CAN DO ANYTHING IN LIFE, LOVE MADLY, LIVE FULLY, RESPECT OTHERS AND STAY FAITHFUL TO YOUR DREAMS!! PEACE OUT, GOOD VIBES AND PURA VIDA!
PS: ¡There's a lot of important people that are missing in the pictures!

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Criss
Criss
Photographer, aspiring film maker, dreamer, in love with the world!! Everything you want is on the other side of fear!!